Hope Estheim (
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Sooo I have 1,030 comments for Hope and I think that's time for a meme.
ASK A QUESTION, it can be anything CFUD related. OOC, IC, relationship/first impressions, psychology, thoughts, whatever. I.E. My character's opinion of your character (relationships and whatnot) or maybe what you have been wondering about this behavior or that, or general thoughts on my characters or canons, Hot or Not, You Should Jump Me, App My Canon, whatever you want to ask for. WHEN I REPLY, I will also ask you a question in turn!
COME AT ME. Your options are Elliot Nightray, Hope Estheim, Julian Keller and Ronan Nolan.
ASK A QUESTION, it can be anything CFUD related. OOC, IC, relationship/first impressions, psychology, thoughts, whatever. I.E. My character's opinion of your character (relationships and whatnot) or maybe what you have been wondering about this behavior or that, or general thoughts on my characters or canons, Hot or Not, You Should Jump Me, App My Canon, whatever you want to ask for. WHEN I REPLY, I will also ask you a question in turn!
COME AT ME. Your options are Elliot Nightray, Hope Estheim, Julian Keller and Ronan Nolan.
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The thing is, it also freaks him out a bit because for a while there, his room was his "safe" space, or at least somewhere where he didn't feel like he had to pretend to be "okay". He's always kind of "on", in the sense that he is pretending that he's functioning! He's okay! He totally is not always pretending that he is coping when he really, really isn't and just wants to shut everything off until he's ready to deal with it again. In a way, this is good for him because hiding in his room is not a good psychological coping mechanism by any stretch of the imagination. But it's also bad because he's not ready for being on all the time, so he's probably prone to just shutting down at some points and just staring at the ceiling for hours at a time.
It's probably unsettling as fuck to poor Vic, to be honest.
Do you have any headcanon for Noel yet?
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UM...idk tell me things about Julian I want to know them.
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YOU TELL ME THINGS. I COULD KEEP AT THIS ALL DAY.
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- The night after Fang and Vanille became l'Cie, they were thrown a celebratory party. It lasted until morning and everyone in Oerba came to see them off. Even though she drown herself in the night's events, Vanille sobbed as they left and Oerba disappeared from sight.
- There was a big spat between Fang and Vanille about their Focus when Fang became Ragnarok and Vanille ran away. She very literally ran away, saying she couldn't do it. It was then that Fang resolved to save her no matter what. Vanille can't even pull flowers from the ground there was NO WAY THAT SHE WAS GOING TO KILL ALL THOSE PEOPLE even if she believed they sucked.
- Vanille will pick flowers/plants only for celebratory reasons, or for use in food. When they wilt, she mourns their loss. :(( If they're in the ground, she mostly she just ends up talking to them. SHE LOVES THEM, THEY'RE LIKE HER BUDDIES IN THE GROUND.
- On that note, Vanille is very spiritual! She could probably roll around in the grass all day and be happy. She doesn't do it nearly as much anymore, but she used to pray to Gran Pulse a lot. It was a little before she realized that she had to do more to help herself, rather than pray for the gods to do it for her. It's one of the reasons she got all fussy at Hope for making a fal'Cie. Not necessarily just the fal'Cie part, but the idea that people could create something that only gods should really bothered her.
- When Vanille loves, she loves unabashedly. There are very loose boundaries when it comes to loving people and wanting to be close regardless of gender or age. It's one of the reasons she comes off so suggestive sometimes. She's very pansexual, and has a tendency of falling in love with people a little bit when she meets them.
- Despite being a crybaby, she's not a bad hunter. She can justify it because dude, people need to eat. SHE ALSO KILLED THIS BEAR HERSELF.
- When she was with Hope when his mom died, it hit a lot of emotions, many of them close to home. She remembers her own parents dying in a similar fashion, and Fang snapping her out of it. The Hanging Edge reminded her so much of the own warzone that she got caught in that it was more the draw to keep the poor, suddenly motherless boy aware enough not to die in the battle. It was one of the reasons she stuck with him, otherwise she would've left him before she went into the vestige. She was very aware that he needed someone.
- Actualllly, there were a lot of times during their travels that she realized Hope needed someone. She sort of volunteered herself, since a lot of the other people in the party were stupid. It was one of the reasons he got lots of touchings/handholdings/nappings together.
- Vanille can do a lot of different things but there's not a lot of hobbies she's amazing at. She knows the basics of taking and putting a toaster together, and could probably find a problem if something minor happened with the microwave, but if it gets more complicated than that she'll take it all apart and fuss when she realizes she can't put it back together. It's the same with hunting. She's better than you'd expect, but she's not on Fang or Noel's level. The same is with cooking, sewing, and household repairs.
- Fang is the one who snapped her out of her depression when her village was destroyed, and Fang is the one who stayed with her when she needed emotional stability without asking anything in return. She admires her a lot for it, but it took Fang a while to convince her that she didn't need to do anything for her in return..
I have more but i have to go shopping. So more later.no subject
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Which one of mine should meet Rebekah for hilarity?
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Long version: It's hard to describe just how thoroughly broken Julian is by Scott in comics continuity. As frightening as the mutant events are for the adults, they are even more frightening for a teenager who is utterly helpless to change his own destiny, as the X-Men are his legal guardians and no-one cares enough to investigate their care of the teenagers. Scott has quite openly stated that the teenagers are child soldiers in the war between mutants and humans and that he will deploy them if he thinks their mutant talents are necessary to preserve the species. He doesn't really prioritise their sanity at all. For Julian, he canonically stays in his room for weeks at a time, can't get up the inclination to take care of basic personal hygiene stuff and is so depressed that Wolverine stages an intervention because he thinks that Julian may kill himself. He hates and despises himself for what he has become and what he has done, hates that he's a double amputee, and he blames Scott for putting him in that position. He blames Scott for putting his friends into that position, and he blames himself for not being smart enough, good enough, strong enough to keep everyone safe. He is a massive ball of self-loathing and hatred that he manages to wrangle into some kind of functionality by hating Scott Summers, with a healthy streak of fear that he will try to kill him if he comes to camp and notices that he's not in the school or Utopia. I mean, Julian knows not only that X-Force kills people but has watched it; he was pretty ill at the time, but he's entirely coherent and aware of what's going on around him, so he knows that it's a definite possibility.
Then he meets movie Scott! A Scott who is wryly self-aware, who values people over the species as a whole, who actually wants to train the kids in a safe way. He's still a dick, but he is nowhere near the spectacularly douchey levels of comics Scott. Someone who is horrified at the idea of using children as child soldiers. And Julian just can't cope with this. His entire coping mechanism was hating Scott! Scott is someone worthy of his ire and hatred and now this one isn't. Which begs the question: what's wrong with him? There's a part of Julian that's broken enough to believe that he deserves everything he gets because he was put in a position where he killed someone to protect everyone else, and so he dwells on the part where this is his punishment. Everything that happens to him, how miserable his life is and how much it lacks any kind of meaning or joy in it? That's his punishment. He earned this. Normally he can function through this. Movie Scott not being his Scott (and therefore not being someone who he can lash out at) means he can't.
He probably checked out on his bed for a few days, to be honest, in that weird depressive state where time passes and you don't even notice.
SO SCOTT. HOW DOES IT FEEL TO HAVE THESE DYSFUNCTIONAL TEENAGERS AS ADOPTED CHILDREN? What does he think is even up with Julian?
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X-men = Family. That's pretty much Scott's creed. Scott makes sure they have enough Oreos. Scott sits down and watch their TV shows with them. Scott patrols the school at night to make sure no one's having nightmares.
So now in some weird alternate universe, they are fighting a war and used as soldiers. That is not what X-Men are about, to Scott. His sole purpose was to protect the X-Men, keep them safe. He knows this! Despite loving the Professor and seeing the justness in his case, Scott is always going to be for the X-Men first before anyone else.
So Scott isn't hurt that much by the accusations. He understands that he would have done the same. But now he's terrified of becoming the person where he sends kids to war. He cannot comprehend this scenario at all. Even with Jean's death, the X-Men are his life. He would have never given that up.
Therefore, Scott will take it slow. He won't press and push. He's trying hard to adapt to the situation and be a different person in their eyes. He doesn't know what happened and really, he doesn't want to. He doesn't want to have any connection with the Scott they know.
I HOPE THAT ANSWERED YOUR QUESTION.
Five things the mutant-teachers should do!
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2. LOTS OF STUPID MUTANT GAMES
3. ...actual school.
4. SET SOME RULES IN THIS CABIN for serious it is anarchy in there.
5. NO TURNING INTO STUFFED ANIMALS WE DON'T WANT TO SEE THAT.
(also man, I just remembered that Julian should probably see Jean about his prosthetics and getting them adjusted.)
Five things that Scott wants to do in camp?
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2. LOTS OF STUPID MUTANT GAMES.
3. Bonding! If there's a dumb movie we're watching, he'll watch. If there's a stupid game that needs to be play, he'll be in, just to show the kids he's around in a positive capacity.
4. Therapy is on his mind, but he's not sure how to do that. Beyond that, he does want to have Jean arrange counselings sessions since she is a doctor, and get the mutants to talk to someone he trusts. (Magneto and Wolverine are out. Forever)
5. Give them rides on his bike, no matter how much it kills him inside :(
Hmm. If Ronan knew that Rex is into manslaughter what would he say/do?
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Ronan would be more dismayed for Rex's moral health than anything. Ronan understands that you do have to kill sometimes - he was the One's Champion and has been dropped into two combat zones that I know of where he has had to basically kill his way to his goal, and while he grieves their deaths, he understands that it was necessary. What would concern Ronan more is if Rex became apathetic to killing people, or enjoyed it. If he does it because he must and understands that a life is a weighty thing to bear then Ronan would be understanding but also not be that worried. It's if that's not the case he would be worried.
DOES REX HAVE A BRONER FOR RONAN AND TELL ME ABOUT IT.
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Okay, so, Rex doesn't really have broners, except for Ben Tennyson and that's more of a hero worship thing towards the end. Rex respects Ben, wants to be just like him, would copy any of his habits just to be closer. His feelings for Ben Tennyson are through the roof.
It's different with Ronan. Ronan was Rex's first friend in camp and someone Rex believed he could have a good time with. Have fun, relax, be a kid. And it helped that Ronan believed in him and understood him! That made a huge difference, because Rex was extremely relaxed with Ronan and never tried to hide anything. Ronan is Rex's friend and Rex believes that wholeheartedly.
Of course, S3 came along and ruined everything. Rex is finding it harder and harder to believe that Ronan understands because he doesn't know anything about Ronan! He's Irish, he has parents, he likes the sea and is a geek is about it and that's not enough for Rex anymore. But he doesn't want to dislike Ronan for keeping to himself. He's trying hard to understand that part of Ronan's personality and he worries that ultimately, he's just not that much of a friend to Ronan as Ronan is to him. IT'S GIVING HIM A BIT OF A COMPLEX.
But Rex does and thoroughly adore Ronan.
WHAT ABOUT YOUR BRONER
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He also dislikes it when people tell him he must do a certain thing. Rex's efforts to force him to reveal more than he wanted to annoyed Ronan because Ronan makes his own choices when he chooses to and not a minute before. Someone forcing him to do something gets his back up because Ronan is someone who fiercely values his own independence.
All that aside, he is genuinely a friend of Rex. He likes him! He does wish that Rex would spend less time trying to pry into his life and more focusing on the here and now because he thinks that Rex needs is less dwelling on the past and more destressing by doing stuff that is entirely not about combat. he just has a short temper.
Name a character who should meet one of mine and why?
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Elliot and Rex - because I think Rex needs a friend who can be as angry as he can be.
Ronan and Optimus Prime - IDK Optimus is a librarian, he'd love Ronan okay.
Hope and Kell-El - because I enjoyed it!
Hope and Yuri - WHY NOT let's snark.
Reverse!
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Dean Winchester, Leto Atreides the II, James T. Kirk, Yuri Lowell, Stefan Salvatore, Sherlock Holmes, Albert Heinrich, Kell-El, Rex Salazar, Optimus Prime, Belus and Scott.
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You know this would go terribly.
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AND.
HOPE WOULD HAVE NO IDEA WHAT IT EVEN IS.
one day we will get the doctor who will sit them down and explain how they broke time. each and every one of them.
who is even in Leto's harem, anyway
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Uh, Rain, Machika, Erik, Charles, Peter, Josh? I think it's more but I've forgotten already.
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Give me some headcanon on Garrus and Elena!
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Tell me five things that Jaime actually admires about Ronan go.
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- his sense of determination/dedication - once he really puts his mind to an idea p. much nothing anyone says will change it, lol. this is simultaneously frustrating and something he admires in a kind of grudging sense because he knows that sometimes the hardest and most necessary decisions are things nobody wants to see done. he knows that as much as he gives him grief about the barrier, he saw a solution, took it, and implemented it so that there was something.
- Ronan is way better at not... being completely awkward... all the time ever... than he is... 8( he admires the fact that he's kind of charismatic and just better at social situations in general and also manages to not look like a doofus ha ha... ha. there are a lot of times where Jaime wishes he could be a lot more like him (basically every time he inserts his foot into his mouth). and then he remembers Ronan is actually also kind of a nerd and really not that cool but. THERE ARE MOMENTS.
- his ability to wear aviator sunglasses without looking 100% dumb (it's only about 80%)
hypothetical projects you think they've done out of boredom!
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First up, and I don't think this would come as a surprise, but Vanya is a very draining person to talk to, emotionally. As we saw in the thread, Vanya consistently takes the worst meaning away from any given conversation. He can never change that. He can never get her to believe that he wouldn't say the things she keeps saying he is saying, and it frustrates him that he has spent years on this and she keeps ascribing these horrible things to him.
Secondly, Ronan actually feels a great amount of shame about how Vanya talks and acts. He's from a canon where the writer was a psychology nurse who specialised in children and adolescents with psychological illnesses, and this feeds into her work - the characters, in essence, act their age and when they start acting abnormally, it's a sign of concern! The series canonically talks about self-identity, actualisation, memory loss, autism, depression ... this is not a series that shies away from examining the Big Stuff and the characters are savvy enough to get it when they see it. Anyway. Ronan knows that Vanya is not acting like a twelve year old girl by any stretch of the imagination. When he sees her act in a way that would better suit a six to eight year old, he feels great shame for his part in this. He also thinks that anyone who encourages this behaviour is abusing her just as badly as Hargreeves, but in a different way: the behaviour has the consequence of forcing her to be dependent on a group of people for her own self-esteem, but it's done to be "kind" rather than "to help her". It was always his goal to get her to a point where she could be her own person, but all that he's done is made her dependent on people in a different way and he hates what he's done to her. Further, he can't undo it because it's reinforced by all of camp; how do you undo a behaviour that is encouraged by everyone else as being cute and sweet but is actually terribly destructive?
This leads into my final point: Ronan has become more aggressive about it lately because Ronan honestly thinks that his work on the barrier has a very good chance of killing him and Nita both. When he told her about how he doesn't want his legacy to be her dead, he means, basically, one of his goals prior to his death is to get Vanya into a positon where she isn't in this horrible codependent abusive cycle and she can stand up on her own, and he has a very short timeframe to do this in. He is getting to the point where he thinks he can't do it because she doesn't want it and instead wants to stay in this comfortable cycle of abuse.
When he sees Vanya, basically, he sees his failure and how he fucked her up beyond belief. He will never tell her this, but right now she is the person he can't save because she doesn't want to be saved. She's happy in this abusive cycle because she is not ready to leave it, and there is nothing he can to do to rescue her.
Welp! That sure was heavy going. What does Vanya think of Hope?
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For Hope, Vanya likes him! A huge part of that is that Hope is Vanille's friend and Vanya adores Vanille so she trusts Hope more than she usually would. Hope's research sounds interesting and Vanya is definitely going to ask him more questions about it because time issues in Camp worry her a lot and she's a bit freaked out that she doesn't age, though she'd be more freaked out if she did. Basically, she wants to get to know Hope better and once she does she'll likely start worrying about him working too much or not having fun, since Vanille's already mentioned it. Vanya is also super glad to have another person she knows in the labs and definitely visits him frequently. The labs used to be a terrifying place Vanta never wanted to go, but slowly with having her darkroom and meeting nice people that work there she's overcoming that feat. Hope should expect lots of visits!
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They're not friends as that would be kind of the definition of creepy. But they are some kind of guardian/charge relationship.
As for Hope's lab! It's locked to him, and if you go inside it doesn't look that flash. There's a really comfortable chair though, because Hope canonically never sleeps so he needs a comfortable chair to pass out on for a few hours.
But on a serious note there's a bunch of datapads lying around that light up because that's what Academia uses all the time man. The white board on the wall is covered with scientific equations and notes to himself that make no sense to anyone except him given that he and Alyssa invented time-space theory. There's always at least one moogle in his office, old coffee cups lying around and on the desk are a bunch of prototypes that he's working on. He has tools in the drawers and basically his office is kind of crazily cluttered.
One thing you want to do with each of your characters?
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I am so unoriginal.